IVE GONE SOFT...

Ive been a flop lately as far as the blogging thing goes, well actually with a lot of different things. I have no excuse other than just being really wrapped up in my own stuff. Sometimes I contemplate ending this blog. I hate not giving anything I work on my all and the blog seems to have fallen thru the cracks and it saddens me. But, for some reason ending it seems so tragic, so for now, Ill write when I feel like I have something to contribute thats worth reading. Its weird because not a day goes by that I dont think about my blog.

In rereading that last paragraph I got a pit in my stomach. I cant end this baby. Im just flakey lately. Im here and I dont plan on going anywhere!!!

Whoooo..

On Wednesday Im going in for surgery. Nothing serious but still, scary as all hell. Ive never been put to sleep and Im terrified of just that. The planning and the appts that have gone into this procedure have been exhausting and draining. I cant wait for it to be over with. Ill have some sweet scars to concoct some stories over. I bought myself a present for the occasion too. 800 thread count sateen sheets. Hollerrr!!! I was long overdue for some new sleep garb. I love soft things. As a matter of fact, if someone were to ask me to describe myself and the things I love, my love for all things soft would be a detrimental detail Id need to include. White marshmallows, flannel, cotton balls, down comforters, cashmere, soft skin... you name it, I love it.

I watched the season finale of GREYS ANATOMY last night after catching up on the last 4 episodes and holy hell did it hit me hard. Goose bumps like whoa!! But why, oh why has they destroyed Merediths face with collagen, botox and restylane? It really irks me that TV and the media has caved to the superficiality of the vain. Dont get me wrong, Im one of the vainest people out there, I try to maintain and take care of myself but Tv is out of control. Her face is so shiny and plumped up to a point where she looks like a giant helium balloon!! Its so sad. Why cant society just accept and embrace the beauty of natural aging??

Okay Im done with my rant. Hope everyone enjoys their MEMORIAL WEEKEND. Remember if youre not hot dogging (or veggie dogging or corn dogging, whatever dogging) youre not celebrating.

xo

AHEMM..

I think its official- I suffer from allergies.

How emo is that??!!

I hate feeling like Im sick when in reality Im not.

I have to keep reminding myself that its just dorky allergies.

SOMETIMES...

SOMETIMES I can be so pumped and energized and like the drop of a hat it all goes south and Im exhausted..

SOMETIMES I overuse the word exhausted...

SOMETIMES I just feel flat out ugly. Like uglier than WOOGY in SOMETHING ABOUT MARY...

SOMETIMES I answer too quickly...

SOMETIMES people just rub me the wrong way. Its not even like theyve done anything wrong to me, its just this feeling that I get. Im usually dead on with stuff like that.

SOMETIMES Im wrong though hehehe..

SOMETIMES I wont listen to my voicemail for like 3 days even when I see that I have messages, which at times becomes a problem... I really dont like checking my voicemail..

SOMETIMES I swear im never going to do something again and five minutes later Im right back where I started, doing it (again)..

SOMETIMES I download some really cheesy old music and listen to it over and over again, my most recent casualty? HOLD YOUR EARS... JOSH GROBAN- YOU RAISE ME UP.... (still wincing,I know, I know)

SOMETIMES I use certain words too freely without considering the consequences of the usage... I do that a lot. Cryptic, much?

SOMETIMES either you know or you dont, and if you dont know, you just dont... Right???

Today I went with I downtown to shop for a dress for this weeks festivities if I even end up making it to them. From the get go we were bitching about having to shop. I love shopping for others. Shopping for myself has become a chore, something I dread. We were two sourpusses complaining and sulking for a good 2 hours until we rewarded ourselves with a looong lunch filled with some extra curricular beverages. Suddenly we were happier. Ended up finding 2 dresses. Of course I finds a dress within the first 20 minutes of the excursion. El and I had some good random BBM chat going on, B had me laughing, R too, theyre my faves to shoot the shit with, What would I do without my blackberry? Id probably be really codependent and friendless... Wait, Im those 2 anyway, arent I? Hahahaha, JK.

Aright, Im EXHAUSTED from blogging--

x to the o

LAZY DAZE...

I hate when its gross outside. Rain affects my mood. People who are hyper on a rainy day bother me. On rainy days I listen to sad music. Im starting to paint myself as a mood person I think. Im really not, I guess im just cliche sometimes, hehehe. Okay I just lied because im listening to OKKERVIL RIVER- BLACK and its not maybe sad. More agro!!

Going for lunch with El and R, Im so excited to actually sit down and enjoy lunch and my time with friends. We always laugh when were together. Freedom is something ive really come to appreciate since starting school again. Alas its over and I cant wait to catch up with everyone. S!! Cant wait for WED!!

I had a really nice weekend.

This week is going to be a rough one. Im nervous.

I wish I had a magnolia tree in front of my house, ugh- so beautiful. Im kinda getting sick of cherry blossoms, theyre a dime a dozen around here. My neighbor around the block has one and sometimes I want to go there, chop it down and replant it in front of my house. How weird am I??

But if I were normal would you really give a damn about what I had to say??

Yeah, thought so.

Black - Okkervil River

BIG TIME FLOP..

I think this mightve been the longest ive gone without blogging since inception of this mess of words.
For whoever still reads it and checks in with it every now and then thanks for not giving up on me completely.
School just ended and my life has just been really hectic and busy. I think im back in action though.

I love hearing about people who read my blog. Its so motivating and makes me feel like all I want to do is blog. The question is-- if I dont really have much to say, do I write anyway? Like am I supposed to write about nothing exciting? Like today I ate tuna tartare for lunch?? Does anyone want to know that??

Last night we went out for I's birthday and it was a really fun night. I found out that a lot of people stop by this blog every now and then and I got super stoked! Thanks S, B and J!!

A, I and myself had an all out singing session to AIR SUPPLYS- IM ALL OUT OF LOVE. I love that song. I love stumbling upon an oldie yet a goody.

We were talking about the dread and doom brought on by birthdays. I am KNOWN for CRYING EVERY SINGLE YEAR ON MY BIRTHDAY. Sometimes I wake up and get it out of the way, other times the tears strike mid day. This year though, I made it all the way to 5:00 before the flood hit. Its not that im sad about my birthday its just that I always feel extra emotional on the day for unknown reasons. I will admit that getting older is starting to feel sucky though. I think crying on your birthday should be a required act. Let the record show that this past year, I had one of my best birthdays to date, thanks to some really special people in my life. Wow, how corny did I just get?

Ive been obsessed with this jam lately. Perfect pool side song. So here you go my lovelies-

KINGS OF LEON are awesome. They are one band that I never get sick of. I actually read a really great article about them in last months ROLLING STONE magazine. I am starting to like that magazine again. Its a bit mainstream for my snobby self but last months articles were intriguing. Especially the one about HULK HOGAN. So yeah. Talk about monday morning quarterbacking!

xo

All Out Of Love - Air Supply - Air Supply

knocked up - lykke li & kings of leon